The weirdest thing happened to me the other day. I was at the local super store with more than one hundred dollars in my pocket that for once wasn’t already earmarked for a bill when my wife asked if I wanted to look at anything while we were there. She had already picked up the weekly groceries and was willing to indulge my shopping gene. I stood there in silence completely surprised that she wasn’t racing to the checkouts.
It’s a bit out of the ordinary in our relationship that I am the one that likes to browse or take my time at the store thinking I might find a great deal while she is the one who wants to get in, get what she needs and get out. You almost feel bad for anyone who gets in her way, but today she had asked if I wanted to shop. After I regained my senses from this surprise I thought about the extra money in my pocket and what I wanted to spend it on. What had I been wanting, needing, just couldn’t live without? Nothing, absolutely nothing came to mind.
It seems I have reached a point in my life where there isn’t anything I feel the need to waste my hard earned dollars on anymore. Sure I would like to see that new blockbuster movie that just came out but I can pay twenty for the DVD, watch it once and then stack it with the rest never seeing it again… or I can just rent it from one of those vending machines for less than two dollars, enjoy it, return it and still have my other eighteen dollars.
I could buy that shirt I saw and liked the color on… or I could just dig that one I bought two years ago and buried in my closet out, wear it and tell everyone I just got it. I could but that new bestseller book that came out… or I could just download a free amazon book, maybe read my favorite blogs and get my story fill that way without spending a dime. I could buy that bag of chips with the new flavor I haven’t tried before but let’s be real about it, a few less bags of chips might do me some good. Then again the chips are only a dollar, no, no I don’t need them.
What has happened to the old me? The one who always had to have the newest movie as soon as it hit the shelves, the newest CD as soon as it was released and the latest, greatest piece of technology (I’m writing this on a four year old laptop and have yet to spring for a smart phone. That is why for nearly ten hours a day you won’t see a comment from me while I am at work. No connections there).
A few other changes I have noticed include the lack of get up and go. I can still get up and go, I just really can’t think of anywhere outside of home I want to be that bad. At home I have food to eat, a TV to keep me entertained and this old laptop to keep me busy. I don’t know of anywhere else I could be this happy. Is there anything wrong with that?
It is just over a month from today I reach one of those birthdays that end in a zero. These for some reason seem to get much harder every time they come around. If you are wondering this one starts with a four which has never happened to me before and it just seems a bit weird. Add in the fact my dad has moved beyond this world just recently and won’t make it to his own version of a zero ending birthday this year as he should have and it begins the worry in my head.
It doesn’t seem like it was that long ago I was purchasing my very first car, decking it out with huge, noisy speakers and putting tint on the windows. Leafing through tons of magazines to see what rims would look good or if I should add ground effects or those glowing lights under it. Now I am driving my old truck that is paid for, still has the factory radio inside and the only effects on it are from the splashes of mud that I haven’t washed off yet.
So I pose the question to my blogging friends out there – Is it time for a mid life crisis? Should I be shopping for a convertible sports car and buying pants that are way too tight? Should I slick my hair back and have my teeth whitened? Should I download the newest Miley Cyrus album to my newly purchased IPhone with the really expensive, sparkly case and try twerking while listening to the songs? Should I be taking selfies and posting them to my (okay I admit it, I have no idea where I would need to post my selfie but I’m pretty sure Facebook is not the right answer).
Should I be worried I am not the trendsetter or follower I was a few years ago or just be happy I am in a place in my life I feel comfortable with? I’ve been married now going on seven years and working the same job for fifteen so there isn’t much new happening to me daily. Should I consider that a good thing or do I need to be out there attempting bungee jumps off a really high bridge with a camera strapped to my head?
I’m telling you this not being able to think of anything I wanted to shop for has really caused me some worry. I even tried to shop a few online retailers but lost interest very fast. I did finally make it back to the store to pick up a bag of those chips though. I added a small thing of ice cream as well to make me feel good about buying something I wanted. Now I need to decide if I am going to eat them separately or just mix them together. Chips and Ice Cream seem like a good mid-life crisis meal. Only bad part is the ice cream doesn’t mix well with my beer but I am going to make it work.
If you see a convertible stopped by the police tomorrow and a drunk green haired man is arguing with the cop you will know I finally snapped. Oherwise I will be back later with more ramblings. Thanks for stopping in.